there were times, every year, days and nights.looked towards people who could be real supports. They did not show up. May be circumstances, did not allow them. In deep water knowledge without swimming, I tried to cross as possible at safe place on river bank. Came up alone, unknown events, accidents, obligations, social dirt and here I am. Is it wrong if I take a side seat not to face them as they want to feel good if I am around ? Is it wrong _ if I do not want to know about them at all ? Simply _no. As they remind me, their suggestion could be great help and I could continue the best, which I messed up trying to learn to swim in river of life. I want to stay away. But those parts want to be with me now every day.silly. If I give them place to seats, it will be their place, if I don't allow that would be my extra more energy to learn swimming further successfully. Past never leaves, when you are doing well at present .what you must ensure_ your own peace of present.