That was one other time when my whole body reacted to the fear and went out of my own control. My nerves came apart completely, and I started vomiting and vomiting. I couldn't stop. It had been such a narrow escape. I kept telling myself that I could take all the pressure; but there were those times that my body seemed almost to shut itself down, to scream that what was happening was just too much.

Things We Couldn't Say